♂Yeah well...♂

deleting photos and bad hygene

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 07:06:42 GMT

Oh wow! It's been like 400 years since I updated. Sorry, I've been busy. Plus no one even reads my lj so I don't even know why I grace this website with my presence.

So anyways. I could write a book about the things that happened in the past... what? Year and a half. I guess to sum things up, senior year, being a fashion design major kicks serious ass, traveled, met people etc. You know, same ol' same ol.

But that's not why I'm writing here. I came here to kind of bitch.

How come on fb and your good friends upload really embarrassing or not family friendly photos, and you ask them to remove it, they NEVER do. And they ALL SAY THEY WILL. Seriously, wtf? I mean NONE of them say "no I won't remove it" Or not respond. Like, I know it's still there. Sure I untagged it, but it's still in your public-ass album.

I delt with this ALOT of times. This recent case is just REALLY bad because I was hella drunk that night and ended up hooking up with this SUPER gross guy. And there's pictures of us!!! Oh HELLLLLL no! I have a reputation to uphold! Not to mention I do NOT want to trigger those AWFUL memories. Ugh. I've choked on cock before, but I've never gagged on a cock because it smelled/tasted HORRIBLE. He needed a shower, BAD. REAL bad. Thank GOD we didn't have sex. He was like a walking STD. Just thinking about it makes me shudder. So yeah, she uploads the pics, and right away I untag the SHIT out of them and tell her to delete the said untagged photos. And she's like "oh no problem!" But as I type this, they are STILL there.

God dammit. This is so embarrassing. I can't believe, I actually blew that guy. I don't care if I was drunk. I'm so ashamed. What happened to my standards?

Oh well, lesson learned. Don't drink with that girl again. Unless a designated boy scouter is present.

Wed, 13 Aug 2008 09:13:51 GMT

HEYYY!

So summer came and is now going away once again. Things are lazy. I interned for a small fashion magazine publishing company. It was paid, which was awesome, but I did bitchwork, which was not awesome. It was my first intern job, but still, jeeez. Leave that to the ugly betches who worked there, not me. I mean, I occasionally got to put my two cents in, and they really liked me! I got to go to a couple of meetings and company get-togethers. I left like a week ago, I'm really gonna miss some of those people! Others, not so much. Actually, I made some really nice friends and "friends", some who were a bit of both, like Oliver. He wrote some articles, but mostly, he was a model. And a fucking HOT one too. When I first saw him I felt like I got struck by lightning and fireworks, died, and of course, went to heaven, where Oliver was GOD. The fact that he was beautiful didn't surprise me, but the fact that he was actually fun to be with was great too. We'd hang out after work all the time and go to stores and critique the clothes. Seriously, we would talk about fashion for hours!! And no, it never gets boring. Except when he took his shirt off. It's true what they say, models are CRAZY in the sack. He was PERFECT. But I kind of lost his number after I quit. I hope he calls me. He's one I'd go back to for seconds. I'm gonna go back to school in Cali in a couple of weeks. Since I finished my gen ed, I finally get to take all these awesome design and sewing classes. I could die. I'm gonna totally be famous too, like, people will see my stuff all over the place. I know it. I'm totally gonna be a star that works with celebrities and shit.

In other news, my sister is REALLLLLY pregnant now, my nephew is due in just a couple of weeks.

Ahhhh! Creepy!!!

Ok I got to go though.
I swear to god I will post here when she has the baby.

Name and all. No pics though!

-L.M

Thu, 29 May 2008 08:58:33 GMT

HEY GAIZ Sorry about the long time no update, schools out and I'm back in New York (I know, I claim to hate it but I miss the shopping here. And guess what? This weekend I'm gonna see Becky! OMG YAY! I haven't seen her in forever, aside from facebook I don't really know what she looks like. She says she's got some crazy news for me. And you bet your sweet ass I'm shitting myself to hear what it is.

Ok, so here's some other big news. Big enough to write in here I guess.... So like, I'm chillin' in my room, getting reacquainted with Eddy when my cell phone goes off. I check the ID and it's just like numbers (so no one on my contacts) I answer it and I hear, "I miss you so much...."

Wtf, it's Ty. And I am SO over Ty, like seriously, we broke up 3 months ago, he's like so 5000000 guys ago.

And it was all like that "No booty calls" video from Kelly. Him just like "come over I wanna fuck you" and me all like "yeahno" I think he was drunk, he slurred his words a little.

Ohhh Anyways, my sister is due in a few months, she got tested to find out the baby's gender a month ago, it's a boy! She said she really wanted a girl, but whatevz, I'm excited. I guess I kind of wanted her to have a girl too. I doubt he's going to be nearly as fashionable as I am. Unless gay brother=gay son. Which I think only works in queer as folk. Whatever, I bet he'll be a great kid, since my sister is awesome. Ahhhhh! I'm so excited! I know I'm not the father but I got all these names I wanna give him. I think Liam is really cute, or Stephan, or Johnny! I think Johnny is the cutest. I never have met an ugly Johnny and it's so appropriate without being too common. If I ever have a son.... GAH, wtf! I'm getting all maternal. I should go to bed before things get too sticky.

-L.M

Mon, 10 Mar 2008 09:32:05 GMT

So like OMG FUCK I finally am having a little break cause spring break is close and I fucking can't wait another week for it! There's just too much shit going on!

So relationship wise, I'm in a slump. I haven't had a fuck in weeks and I don't miss it. I guess I'm just growing up. My 2 year relationship with Ty went down the shitter since the last time I came home. This time I'm not going back to him. I'm leaving New York behind me, as impossible as it seems. I'm looking for work here in California, and, aside from my family, just don't have anything left there except memories. Don't get me wrong, I totally long for the days when I was in high school and I was the queen of queens. I guess I wasn't really grateful for what I had untill I kinda lost it. Not like college isn't cool. It just isn't the same is all. I never had to worry about money until college.

In other news, my sis sent me some pictures of her belly, damn, that girl is gettin' BIG. She seems pretty happy though, she's no longer an a-cup, so she doesn't even care that she's getting fat from the baby. Just seeing them kind of freaks me out still. I mean, I grew up with my sister. I have memories of her when she was a kid. And even though we're both grown up. It kind of is just a reality of just HOW grown up I am. I mean. God. I feel so old! I'm only 20.... but still, that means I only have 10 years left until I start to get old! Even though gays take a longer time to age... It's a proven fact, fuck you.

Anyways, cuz I'm lazy, I'm cross posting this shit to my Deviantart. I know thats weird, but damn, you should see my closet. OCD.

ok, gotta go to fuckin sleep.

-L.M

Sat, 15 Dec 2007 08:51:37 GMT

First meme, then news:

Ten Things You Want To Say To Ten Different People:
not listing names.

1. If I ever see you wear khakis with that top again, I'll KILL you.
2. Dye your hair back! You don't make a good redhead!
3. Why are you straight!?
4. I don't care if you're my professor, I want you inside me.
5. Seriously, I l*ve you so much, enough so I will do your makeup everyday, because seriously, you put on TOO FUCKING MUCH.
6. I hate your shoes
7. You're putting on a few.
8. I don't mean those things I say to you in front of my friends, you actually have good taste for a goth chick.
9. I l*ve you. I l*ve you so much...
10. Yo lets fuck!

Nine Things About Yourself:
1. I'm here
2. I'm queer *shot*
3. I've had rainbow hair for 2 years, changing it occasionally
4. I'm a fashion major
5. College has been totally making me gain weight *panic*
6. I can be very judgemental at times
7. I can't keep a secret to save my life.
8. I'm heterophobic (for myself, not other people)
9. I love women as much as men without being bisexual

Eight Ways To Win My Heart
1. Dress well
2. Have money
3. Be hot
4. Be like totally witty
5. Treat me like a prince
6. Worship me
7. Have a nice cock (not nessicarily big, but niiiiiiice)
8. Be AMAZING in bed, like, a GOD.

Seven Things That Cross Your Mind a Lot:
1. Fashion
2. Sex
3. Life
4. School
5. Sex again
6. What I'm gonna do with my life
7. My girlfriends

Six Things You Wish You Never Did:
1. Dated the guy I lost my virginity to.
2. Dye my hair purple
3. Not be able to see my Grandma in the hostpital when she died.
4. Try to dress punk
5. Lose touch with Beck.
6. Fall in love

Five Turn Offs:
1. People who dress bad
2. People with bad hygene
3. Nerdy people
4. Ugly people
5. People who yell at me for just giving them critisizim.

Four Turn Ons:
1. bi curious guys
2. Virgins (I looooove popping cherries, I know, shame on me :))
3. Tall guys
4. People who look like celebrities

Three Smileys That Describe Your Life:
1. ~_*
2. ;D
3. :@

Two Things You Want To Do Before You Die:
1. Get married (or whatever)
2. Become famous

One Thing You Want:
1. To be young and beautiful forever (So I can dress up in all the futuristic fashion trends!)

Ok now the big news,
My sister is pregnant.

I know... WTF.

She's like, almost a month pregnant. I found out yesterday. OMFG, I'm gonna be an uncle. I'm sooooo freaked out. I need to buy this baby clothes! And to find a cuter term for myself. I do NOT wanna be called uncle. I am too sexy for that.

I actually finished my finals today, and I'm coming home for break tomorrow. I'm really excited, because I wasn't able to see my family for Thanksgiving, and I was so depressed. All my friends were visiting family, and I didn't have anyone to hang out with. At one point I was about to cry. I mean, they called me and I talked to them for a long time, but it wasn't the same. I'm totally a family person. I have a whole month devoted to just lounging about, so I think I'll get myself a part time job! I'm a bit afriad of it, but I wanna go for retail.

I also am really excited to visit Ty. Yeah, I gotta talk about him in each entry cause I l*ve him.... I know I said a while ago we had a falling apart, but we totally are back now. We started chatting about life and whatever and now we're as close as ever.
He said hes gonna wait for me at the airport. Awwww, I'm so excited, it's gonna be like in the movies! My hearts all fluttering!

-L.M

Sun, 21 Oct 2007 08:46:11 GMT

OMFG!

Seriously, WHAT THE HELL?! Ok, I'm about to sound like a huge nerd, so if you want to look at me as someone with dignity in the future, please don't read the following:

OMG DUMBLEDORE IS GAY?! Seriously, where the hell did that come from?! Harry Potter's DONE. Like, part of me thinks that JK just kind of pulled that out of her ass, just to fuck with her fans. Like, she was sitting in her palace because shes richer than anything in England, and she's sitting infront of a magnificant fire, with a doobie in her hand (because this story could only work if she was high), giggling to her self thinking "OK, I think I'm gonna just make a character gay, the next person who asks about them, I'm just gonna SHOVE THEM OUT THERE" Then she burst into hysterics for like, a half an hour, because she's smoking some gooooooooooood shit, because she's rich and she can afford crap like that. And then shes like "ok, what character should I make gay" And has one of her servants put all the characters (except the ones who were obviously straight) into a hat, and just happened to pull out the longest peice of paper.

Anyways, yeah. Thats how I think it happened.

Wow, that was too elaborate. But ok, I guess me of all people shouldn't complain that another homosexual character is brought into the media, and he doesn't act like a steriotypical gay so he's not gonna piss off the like, really weird part of the gay community.

But anyways, I looked into it, because I wanted to know how he showed any form of sexuality. And she said he was in l*ve with his childhood friend or something. Which I guess is sort of cute. As long as he kept it in his pants when he got older. No off Albus, but you're no Jude Law.

Anyways, I guess I'm just a bit shocked, it kind of just came out (no pun intended) of nowhere, and I wanted to write about something. Like I said, it's pretty boring/busy around here.

Anyways, gotta go, its late as HELL

-L.M

Tue, 25 Sep 2007 06:13:16 GMT

Hey!!!

Sorry it's been so long!

To be honest, I kind of forgot I had a livejournal. I've been way too busy with college. I live in an apartment now, which is WAY better than the dorms. I was able to pick my own roommates (Jerri and Alex! L*ve you lots!) and the bathrooms are cleaner! I mean it's kinda small but whatever. Since I'm not living on campus I had to leave Ed at home again. He never did so hot living on campus anyways, Justin was always poking at him and being a complete douchebag. I'm so glad I don't have to see his wannabe tough guy ass ever again.

I'm taking regular classes, but I decided at the last minute I wanted to take some fashion design classes. Best desision of my LIFE. Right now I'm in the middle of my first major project and it's going AMAZINGLY. I think I really have found my calling in life. I mean, I l*ved dressing up and shopping, but for some reason, it never came across my mind that I could make other people look good for a living. I went to a fabics store for the first time in my life just a couple of weeks ago! I never really have made clothes before. Last year when I was in my thrift shop days I would kind of alter certain things I'd get and make something that looked better, so I'm hoping that this will sort of be the same thing.... I really hope.

Let's see, what else?... Oh! I got a small tattoo of Einstien's theory of relativity tattooed on my shoulderblade. I know it sounds a bit weird, but I've always been interested in geniuses and inventors and such. It's kind of my way of expressing my admiration for all his hard work. I got it with this cool design bordering it, and its in this cool font. I really like it, but I'm sure a bunch of my friends are gonna make fun of me for it.

I bet you guys are wondering why I haven't talked about Ty yet.... I guess cause like, since I got back to college I haven't really talked to him. Which is kind of depressing, because we really connected during the summer. At first he sort of felt uncomfortable, because I was so different from when I last saw him. Also me screaming at him for smoking that one time kind of freaked him out, since I don't like, EVER scream at ANYONE. I really don't, when I argue it's more bitchy than screamy. So for a few weeks he didn't so much as talk about smoking with me. But it was so obvious that he was addicted, he was moody (especially after sex :() and his breath always smelled like the stuff. So finally I was just like "If you wanna smoke, don't let me stop you".
I mean, it's sad that in order for him to be his usual angelic self he has to smoke a cig, but I'd rather have him happy.

But yeah, point is, once college started, we just didn't have time to talk. I only have really chatted with him about 3 times since college started, and we never know what to say to eachother.

I'm getting totally bummed out from this. What if it's time we broke up? Usually I'd just break it off without a second thought, but somethings holding me back. Could it be because he's the "different" one? Seriously, what the hell is the matter with me?

-L.M

Sat, 04 Aug 2007 06:42:07 GMT

Yo!

Wow, I can't believe summer is about to end soon. In less than a month I'm gonna be back in school (this time in an apartment, dorms are for freshman only!). I have mixed feelings about it. On one hand, I had tons of fun this summer! I got a summer job at starbucks and got to drink free coffee everyday (now I'm a caffine addict, yay!), me and Ty did romantic things I have never done with other guys before. Like going on actual romantic dates, seeing eachother for reasons that weren't sexual, and saying that we l**ed eachother. Dude, we even did tacky things like renting out a rowboat at night on a full moon. I mean, talk about tacky. But when its you and a l**er, it's really romantic. Like, retardedly romantic.

Hes gonna be a senior this year. FINALLY in less than a year hes gonna be 18, and I won't have to worry about the pigs getting us for statuatory rape or something freaky like that (lol).

Oh yeah, and some sad news. I'm not sure, but I feel like me and Beck and fallen apart since high school (it feels weird talking about high school. It seems like, yesterday but at the same time it feels like a million years ago!). We have less to talk about since we didn't really keep in contact through e-mail. Which is so weird. How can I be so close to Tyler, who isn't even my age, and then not feel that close to Beck, who I've known since I was just a kid?

I guess thats the way the world works.

Oh!
Before I forget, I got a deviantart page (deviantart is some weird little art site that all my college buddies wouldn't STFU about.)

I don't know if I really can submit anything, I mean, I don't draw, but I guess I write... I mean, I'm writing in here, aren't I?

Anyways, heres the link, check it out! If you watch me I'm bound to get something up there eventually.

http://lust-m.deviantart.com/

Anyways, I gotta hit the hay

-L.M

ohmigod shoes.

Fri, 13 Jul 2007 08:08:30 GMT

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Omg...
SO. FUCKING. UGLY.

Seriously, why the hell does it say "The coolest sandal you've ever seen".

Sandals are NEVER, EVER cool. I mean, flip-flops are cute. On girls. But sandals, ESPECIALLY SANDALS WITH FUR ON THE BOTTOM IS SO FREAKING CREEPY.

So anyways, I gotta go. Remember to keep your feet warm during the summer with nasty sandals with fur on the bottom.

-L.M

Edit:

Mothra

Sun, 24 Jun 2007 08:53:37 GMT

UGH!
Theres a moth somewhere in my room, like, a HUGE one.

Ok, so like, I was in my bathroom, and I saw this smaller moth on the mirror. And if you didn't know this about me, I kinda have a thing against killing bugs, just cause like, what did they ever do to you? Well, I mean, I kill mosquitoes and really tiny bugs, but thats cause they're annoying and suck your blood and get in your eye! But this was just a little moth. So I took a cup and caught it in it and took it to my bedroom window. And as I opened the window to let it out, this MONSTER MOTH just flew in, and it was like, HUGE, I mean GIANT, enough to make any one of you insectaphobes shit. And now I don't know where it is. And I admit, as much as bugs really don't phaze me, this kind of freaks me out. Like, what if it lands on my bed and I roll on top of it in my sleep, or what if it flies in my mouth or something!? THAT kind of freaks me out. Too bad its like, 4:30, otherwise I'd open the windows and go out. But everyone is sleeping... I've kind of become a huge insomniac. I wish I could sleep earlier but, I dunno, I just stay up! Now that I don't have classes and I haven't gotten a job yet, so I kinda just sit around and do nothing or I go out and party.

Oh yeah... How could I forget? BECK CAME BACK LAST WEEK! OMG AND SO DID ALL MY OTHER FRIENDS!
OMG I WAS LIKE SO EXCITED WHEN I SAW THEM! I was squealing and hugging Becky and we were acting like jr high girls who haven't seen eachother for 2 classes.

Omg I missed her so much, we were connected at the hip since then. But yeah, she's going to Japan for a few weeks in early July, so I'm gonna be becky-less again soon ):.

But then again, I've actually met some new people, theres this girl named Jennifer whos a bartender at this club I frequent, and I hung out with her after her shift and she's totally an awesome person, she doesn't care that I'm 19, I get free drinks from her anyways!

Anywho, still haven't found the moth. I'm beggining to think maybe it left my room. Maybe it will fly into Eddies cage and he can have a late night snack.

I'm gonna try to sleep now

-L.M

Quiz!

Fri, 01 Jun 2007 10:18:17 GMT

Ok so I woke up at 5 FUCKING 30 AM, and I couldn't get back to sleep, so I remembered I was tagged for some quiz of 8 random facts about me... And I realize I haven't done these quizzes cause I usually use my LJ for personal stuff.... cause, thats what it is. But yeah, hoping this will get me back to sleep or something, cause I went to bed at like, 2 am.

8 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME

#1. I can write with both hands, but when it comes to everything else, I'm right handed.
#2. During one point in my life I had my lip peirced, but it looked like shit so I took it out and it healed within a week.
#3. I hate living in one place too long. I've never really had a sense of "home" or have become attatched to a certain place... I've never ever been homesick in my life.
#4. Since puberty I have never had a male friend who I didn't have sex with...
#5. ... Including my sisters boyfriend
#6. I have no definite "look" for me. As in while I'm in a certain fashion group, I usually become one for a few weeks or months, then migrate to another, like, I've been prep, goth, punk, emo, indie, hipster, raver, sort of nerd, but not really. Currently I'm trying the skater look (again!).
#7. I steal from Claires (not as much anymore! Don't arrest me!)
#8. I like bitch music.

Ok wow... That was really boring, I think I might actually be tired again.
I'll try to go back to sleep again.

-L.M

Summer is up in smoke

Wed, 23 May 2007 07:50:02 GMT

Yaaaay! I'm back! College is over! I'm still pretty awake, even though its 3:30 here. Plus, in college, I didn't get to bed until like, 2, 4 on finals.

But yeah, I got home yesterday morning, and the first thing I did of course was call Ty (Beck won't be home untill mid June ): )

Well, ok, not the FIRST thing. I unpacked and took a nap, THEN called Ty (thats the problem with dating a high schooler, they get out of school later!) But whatever, details details.
So we have a short conversation, consisting of plenty of 'oh my god's and 'I missed you sooooo much's, ending with a 'get your fabulous ass over here right now'.

So I drive over to Tys house, and when I get there, he answers the door reeking of ash and holding a cigarette in his hand.

Now honestly, I really really REALLY don't care about people smoking or what people smoke. But Tyler is like, my baby. And to me he is kind of a baby (I tend to view younger people as kids). Even so, I've NEVER reacted like I did before, I couldnt even belive what I was doing, I grabbed the cig out of his hand, threw it on the floor, put it out with my shoe, and went all "WHAT THE FUCK" on his ass. And let me tell you, I've seen Ty go through a very wide array of emotions, but I have NEVER seen him this pissed before, even when his dad bitched at me during Thanksgiving. He was SCREAMING at me, as if I smashed his cars headlights in. But I didn't apologize. I mean, I sort of regretted it, it's his choice, and I don't run his life. But I just couldn't imagine him smoking. Last time I saw him he didn't even drink let alone touch tobacco.
I asked him why he hadn't told me that he smoked in our webcam convos or through e-mail, he told me that he didn't think it was important. I asked him a few other questions, he told me he started in March, just because he needed to relieve some stress from schoolwork, family, and sexual frustration.

I dunno. I was just really depressed about it. Smoking just always seems like a depressing thing. All my friends who smoke REALLY want to quit or are just constantly depressed, so I just never felt to urge to try it myself, besides, I have other addictions I have to feed.

After all that we kinda just dodged the subject, and the rest of the time we hung out he didn't smoke. I'm hoping he's not addicted, but if he's been smoking since spring, I shouldn't keep my hopes up. It's just something I'll have to deal with. I know I can be a spoiled brat sometimes, but an addiction is an addiction. If Ty quits, he's gonna get fat and moody. He really shouldn't have started in the first pace. I'll just have to deal with it (even though I'd rather not). Either way, I still love him, and I'm REALLY excited for the summer, I missed New York like a BITCH.

Anyways, expect more updates now that I'm out of school! YAY!

-L.M

Spring fever

Mon, 09 Apr 2007 19:34:26 GMT

Sorry guys! I swear I'm not dead! Just really busy!
My life has been so hecktic latley. The first year of college is coming to a close, which means I have to start studying for all these finals! Ugh, I'm really not the thinking type. Though I've been getting pretty good grades in school (at least better than high school).
I haven't been doing too much since spring break, which ended a week ago. Spring break was AWESOME though! This years spring break was better than any of the other spring breaks in high school combined! Thats cause I stayed in California this time (my parents can only afford so much air fare). When I told Ty I was staying in Cali he got sooooooo mad at me! Don't worry Ty, I HAVE to come home for summer!

While I had a bit of guilt on the back of my head, I never had so much fun! It was the beach every day! To be honest, I haven't really visited the beach that much in california up untill then, just cause I was distracted by all the malls. You can kind of call me a beach virgin, even though I have loads of swimsuits.

It was soooooooo much fun though! I tried surfing and skiing (never again), and everything! I even went parasailing. Though that was a little embarassing, I was acting like such a baby when the boat started and I started lifing. One of my retarded friends caught the whole thing of me freaking out on her cell phone. I'm gonna break that thing.

At night I usually just went to a club, but the second to last night of spring break, we all decided to make a campfire and camp out at the beach. I've only seen that done in teen movies and reality shows, it was so cool though.

But now its all over, it feels like a dream now. Especially cause I'm under piles of all this work. I can't wait to get home for summer.

Anywayyys, I gotta go! I only have so much free time!

-L.M

Thu, 22 Feb 2007 20:44:42 GMT

Hey bitches! (totally not stolen from William Sledd)
Guess what?
I'm 19!! Yay!!!
I don't really feel as accomplished as when I turned 18, but it's still pretty cool. I had a really fun birthday party in California. My first birthday away from home! Pretty exciting! My family, Beck, Ty, and all my New York friends kept tying up my phone line, wishing me happy birthdays, so it was pretty hard to make plans with people. Good thing I set up everything the day before... It was actually pretty annoying. It sucks being born after a national holiday. Especially one that you hate.

But yeah, right after my birthday party I was checking my e-mail and I read that I got an anonymous comment on one of my entires... And... TY FINALLY READ MY ENTRY!
Not to mention he sent me an e-mail blabbing on all about how touched he was about it. I was kinda embarassed and sort of giddy at the same time. It was kinda funny, cause it was written on the morning of the 15th, right when I ditched this cute Japanese guy (well, he had a Japanese sounding name, he looked kinda white) I screwed on V-day (hee hee, he was a virgin! It was awesome!).
But thats not the point.

Anyways... lesse, what else.
Nothing really, on Valentines day, I made a promise to myself to cut the "Ooooh, yay! Valentines day" act, but because of instinct, I pretended to love it, even though, once again, inside I was dying.
UGH.
Though I did dress up like a cupid, like with angel wings... And that looked kinda cute on me.
But thats all that really happened, sorry, I know I didn't update for a long time, but there really isn't anything else happening. Lets hope spring break will change all that!
-L.M

P.S
Oh yeah! Duh!
I read the thing on Britney Spears shaving her head, and OH MY GOD. Why did she do that? She had such pretty hair (granted it was brown in the pictures). She must be going through alot of crap to have done something drastic like that. I mean, it would take ALOT for me to shave my head. I looooove my hair more than life itself!

And yeah, also about Anna Nicole Smith dying and the fight over her body. Pretty sad too.
Now doesn't seem to be a good time to be a hot celebrity.

Forgot Eddie and New Years

Tue, 16 Jan 2007 12:38:17 GMT

Hey guys.
I can't sleep, in a few hours I'm gonna go back to classes for second semester. I got back in Cali sunday night. I had a pretty shitty night back.
Worst part is, I left Edison at home, there was so much last minute shopping and packing and saying goodbyes, that I completely forgot him. I really hope mom and dad take good care of him untill I get another opprotunity to see him again, which wont be untill March.
UGH I feel so stupid, how could I forget my beloved Eddie!
Jeez, Justin the pothead seems happy though. Now he can get fried in peace, asshole. I was really depressed about it last night, and I was almost crying, and Justin, the little fucker, TOLD ME TO SHUT UP! RRRR!! What a dick!
But I'm not too worried, my parents should be able to take care of him.

Anyways, I guess I should talk about New Years and stuff.
Well, I didn't mention this because I was so excited about seeing and, hee, falling for Ty, but on Xmas I got a Nintendo Wii and THE COACH BAG I'VE HAD MY EYES ON SINCE THE DAWN OF TIME!!! Ohmigod, thank you Becky!!!! I love you girl! I showed it off to all my friends as soon as I got back to college! I got a shitload of other things, and I love it all, well... Almost all, I dont know who, but someone thought I would love a pair of bright yellow Crocs... Eww much? Crocs are only the most disgusting shoe in the world.
But I had a wonderful Christmas with my family, for like, the first time since high school started. They really hate that I never spent Christmas with them, and, you know, being away from them really made me miss them. So this year I hung out with them (first Christmas with Al's hubby!).
So anyways, I spent new years with, of course, Ty. Who by the way HASN'T read my lj with my confession, so I guess I'm safe. It was a really romantic new year, my house was empty that night, my parents were off at some party, my sis was... I dont even want to know. And so I-- ohmigod, don't laugh at this, but I decided to make things REALLY romantic, like in the movies. So I made everything all sexy. I lit some scented candles in the bathroom (after cleaning it like a bitch) and bedroom, turned on some smooth jazz, I even got some roses and put rosepetals in the bath. Yeah, it's tacky, but honestly ladies, if your man did that for you, you'd cream yourself. Then, got dressed up all cute (once again, like in the movies) and invited Ty over. And you know what that little shit did? He did the whole "Oh no, I can't come... SIKE" thing. I HATE that. It scared the shit out of me, because he played with me for like, 3 minutes. He almost got me to confess that I set up everything. So yeah, when he was on his way over, I decided that even though we were both underage, a little wine wouldn't hurt us. I got the nicest wine in my parents basement (they actually found out I took it... and they're not happy), put it in ice, and then waited.
20 minutes later he finally arrives. And... The worst happens, he for some reason, decided to bring Nikki (looking glamouous though, loved the nails). Obviousally, I was freaking out. I was dressed for sex, the house smelled faintly of steam and flowers, and you can hear the mood music!!!! I was thinking "I'm going to CHOKE you Tyler!!!" As I let them in.
I told Nikki to sit down and that I needed to tell Ty something.
I (kind of forcefully) dragged Ty into the kitchen and hissed
"Ty! Wasn't I clear on the phone that I wanted to be alone with you?"
He bit his lip, clearly he didn't realize that, stupid boy.
"I'm sorry, but Nikki was with me when you called, and she wanted to see you for New Years."
I sighed and rolled my eyes, "Hon, can I show you something?"
He said, "sure" and immediately pulled Ty to the bathroom.
Naturally, he thought it was really hot and he shut the door. (told you! Tackiness pays off)
So yeah, we were making out and stuff for a while, we even took a dip in the rose bath. And we kind of forgot about Nikki. And after about an hour or so... we heard knocking on the door.
"Tyler, L.M, please tell me that when I open this door, you won't be fucking."
Before we could respond, the little betch slammed open the door and saw us, her face was flushed with anger, which looked really bad on her by the way...
"OH MY GOD TYLER, YOU INVITE ME OVER SO I CAN SIT DOWNSTAIRS AND WATCH TV WHILE YOU GUYS GET IT ON?! YOU GUYS FUCKING SUCK! WAY TO REMIND ME THAT I'M SINGLE!!!!" Then makes this sound that kind of sounded like a shitting chipmunk and stormed out.
I admit, I feel a little guilty about it now, but at the time we kind of ignored her and continued where we were.
For like, the entire night.
Which rocked.
We did like, everything
Did I mention I brought srawberries, whipped cream, toys, etc etc?
No?
Well, we did everyhting.
Poor little underage Ty even got a little drunk off the wine (he drank it too fast). So he had to spend the night in my room, my family caught us (and woke us up) the next morning, got a little pissed, but not really. And me and Ty had a "post new years" breakfast.
It was awesome.

I even said... oh my god, I said it really quiet so Ty couldnt hear me, but I said "I l**e you" that night.

So anyways, I had a wonderful "private" New Years, even though the whole romance thing was supposed to be between me and Ty. But yeah, Nikki has a huge fucking mouth and told everyone what she saw. No biggie though, "Wow, L.M fucked Tyler!? No way!"... Phhh. Really isn't news.
The only problem was Beck kept making fun of the whole "mood" thing I put on. She kept singing "lets get it on" by Marvin Gaye, whenever I brought up Tyler.
Hmph, I thought it was romantic.

Ok, so, about the goodbye party, it was more like a "goodbye night out", kind of like with Graduation. But whatev, it was fun. I was pretty cold towards Nikki, just because she was STILL pissed about her being the third wheel during New Years. GOD, that girl really NEVER gets over anything. I reeeeally wanted to tell Ty to read my LJ about what I wrote, but for some reason, I couldn't work up the balls to tell him. It's weird, because I'm like, almost never like that. But yeah, in the end, I couldn't work up the courage to tell him.
I think I might tell him via e-mail. God, I feel like such a friggin pussy.
Anyways, I gotta go, I gotta get my ass ready for class, I'm probably gonna pass out in the middle of a lecture. Hee hee, whatever, it's the first day back.

-L.M

A realization!

Wed, 27 Dec 2006 21:21:28 GMT

Heeeey! Merry belated Christmas... No, I'm not in Japan, everything was too last minute for that, too bad. I was really hoping to go to Harajuku. Eh, whatever, Japanese people have smaller dicks, and I heard they're really homophobic, ew... I think I'm just saying that to myself though. But whatever.

Ty's dad still won't talk to me, so for X-mas eve I had to ditch Ty, fortunetally I met this REALLY hot guy named Ryan at a new gay club downtown, and I was assured a very very merry Christmas eve. I spent christmas morning with the family, afterwards I just chilled with a few friends, nothing really that sexy and exciting. Also, I was just bored a few days before Christmas (I forgot how boring home can be sometimes) and I remembered that my LJ was about like, a year old. So I reread every post. I realized I changed alot this year. I've actually connected with a guy. Before Tyler, I really was a loveless husk. Sure, I kind of am now, but I've defenateally been sleeping with less other people since I got back to NY. I've gone from this huge slut that was completely against the idea of love, to this huge slut that actually IS in love. I'll FINALLY admit it. Not only do I believe in love, but I really do believe I'M in love. Yeah, Ty, if you're reading this, I LOVE you. This is the first time I've ever loved anybody outside of my family since I was 12. I can't believe I'm saying this. Maybe it's because the things your dad said during thanksgiving, I dunno, but I love you. But,even if I do say this, I still FUCKING HATE VALENTINES DAY. No amount of love will change that. Ugh, FUCK V-day. But yeah, no need to think about that, it's like, 2 months away. Yeah.
Now that I've said that, I really wanna go see Ty. I'm totally going to call him as soon as I finish this entry.

But yeah, I gotta tell you, I got to see Becky again! YAAAYYYYY! OHMYGOD I shat bricks when I saw her, I was so fucking excited when I saw her. I was squealing like a 12 year old girl. She's got this KILLER tan since she goes to school in Hawaii. She's so tan she looks black! I'm so jealous, I wish I could tan that well.
Anyways, Becks soooooooo through with Zack, she met this really really hot hawaiian native.... Shit, I forgot his name, some weird hawaiian name. But yeah, he's really really hot. It should be illegal that he's straight. Someone as hot as that should totally be fucking me.
Anyways, I gotta go, much LOVE. Oh my god, I can't belive it... LOVE, ewwww!
-L.M

Apparently I'm a bird.

Tue, 05 Dec 2006 16:49:36 GMT

So you know how some people say pets look like their owners... or owners look like their pets... Whatever, something like that. Point is some guy came up to me yesterday night and said I looked like a parrot.
I don't know whether to take that as an insult or a compliment. Sure, I mean, my woredrobe has alot of color, but so much to be called a parrot? I guess what I find the most odd is that the guy who said it didn't even know about Edison! Do I really look like a parrot?
Hmmm...
You know what, I'll take it as a compliment. Parrots are exotic, intelligent, and everyone wants one. Thats totally me. Even if it was meant as an insult, I'm not changing my hair. Rainbow hair is so cool, even if it's really is hard to manage, like 24/7 maitinance. You know, sometimes I do think about just dying it one solid color.
Then again, I wouldn't get as many stares, and I love the attention.
But yeah, I just wanted to say that.
-L.M

Mon, 27 Nov 2006 18:11:45 GMT

I just got back from New York (already!) and right now I'm in the middle of class. I can't concentrate... I'm still in a homesick mood. It's almost like how I felt when I first came to college... Well, its actually EXACTALLY how I felt. Most of my college buddies are California natives, and can see their family anytime they want. But mine is all scattered across the country. Ever since Al graduated home has never really been like it used to. And then things got even more messed up when I graduated. Now family time is the most sacred thing in the universe. This thanksgiving, my mom put an extra effort into dinner, she went absolutely apeshit whenever she thought she overcooked something or forgot a tiny detail in the meal. I mean, if you knew my mom, she's the type that doesn't EVER give a shit about cooking or cleaning or anything that a mom should worry about.

But yeah, even though it was hecktic, it was fun. My house was less boring than it used to be. The turkey was cooked to perfection, the table was set, everything was clean, and the fire alarm didn't go off once. Everything seemed to be going swimmingly.

... Then again, eating the meal itself was a nightmare. I don't know WHAT made me think inviting Ty and his dad over to my house for Thanksgiving would be a good idea, because it wasnt. Ty's dad is cool and all. But not so much about the "special" relationship we share. I mean, he isn't homophobic. He just arent into the "friends with benefits" thing... I guess I don't blame him.
So anyways, to sum things up, Ty's dad and my dad started fighting about how I was a bad infuence on Tyler, my mom left the table early, and all poor Tyler could do was sit with his face in his hand. I felt like crap...

After they left, (his dad and my dad were forced to apologize by my mom, who wears the pants in the household) Tyler called me and said he snuck out of his house, and said he really wanted to meet up with me. He said that his dad didn't want him hanging out with me anymore, saying I was too old for him.

So nowwwww, it seems I totally screwed up everything.
I dunno, I just thought me and Ty's dad got along. I mean, sure, I never really got to know him, but he never kicked me out or yelled at me before. I always just assumed he didn't know about us, and decided that was all for the better.
Man, now I don't know what to do. I'm back in college, and I won't be home again untill December, even then, I was planning to only spent a little bit of time there, and then take a trip to Japan (I know, I travel alot... what can I say? I like to go places)... And I was planning on bringing Ty, Beck, and Yuri (who speaks Japanese). But I mean, how am I supposed to get Ty's dad's forgiveness by then. I don't even know HOW much he hates me. He's really quiet, in like, a creepy way. I'm guessing Ty got his adorable outgoingness from his mom.

Oops! I gotta go! I need to get started on my English paper! It's due in 2 days, and I've been blowing it off.

Any advice you guys?
-L.M

Tue, 14 Nov 2006 17:15:41 GMT

Yo! I know once again, another giant gap in updates. I told you already, I'm really busy with college, and I have better things to do with my free time than browse the web.
Anywaaays, I saw Borat a week ago. Let me say, I LOVED IT. Even though... yeah, that one scene... If you guys saw it, you know what I'm talking about. I wanted to puke. I was so glad I didn't bring anything to eat. I loved the gay pride parade part, that was awesome!
...
Speaking of... Don't you think its a bit bizzare that Borat had even more homoerotica (not to mention, showed more cock) than like, Brokeback Mountain? I mean, really, I guess Brokeback was ok and such. But it's really not as controversial as people said it was. Sure, it won a few Oscars. But I mean, only because it was gay. If it was about a man and a woman, lets face it. No one would have cared... Maybe that there was a female cowboy and some idiot decided they wouldnt fool around if they stayed really close in the middle of nowhere.

And meanwhile, a movie with 10 times more male nudity and homosexuality wont even be able to get a sniff of the best picture Oscar. What a pity. Seriousally, does a gay movie have to be really serious and confusing in order to please a crowd? Nothings wrong with a bit of comedy.

... Uh... Yeah, why am I talking about a movie that came out a bazillion years ago?

Ok, getting back on a less pointless topic. In a week I'm going home to visit for a week. MAJORLY excited. I really miss my family and I espeically miss Ty. Also, I kind of miss cold weather. I mean, dressing for summer the whole year is fun at first, but afterwards you begin to miss things like snow and cute winter coats and whatever. Like, sure, chances are it might not be snowing when I visit. But I'm sure as hell it will be cold. Ty keeps telling me about how he's freezing his tits off.

Anyways... What else is happening with me...
OH YEAH! Oh my god, I can't belive I forgot this, so yeah, like, maybe a month ago, I was chilling with my group and they were all like "Hey L.M, have you ever been to a skatepark?"
And I was like
"Ew no, only guys who dont bathe go skateboarding."
And they were all like,
"Too bad bitch, we're taking you to a skatepark"
So I said
"Ok."
So I went, and, suprise suprise, some of the guys there DON'T smell like B.O and homless people. Infact...
Some of them were... Well were really hot. I'm talking about this guy named Felix. I mean, he's amazing. Not only that. But he totally kicked ass at skateboarding. I mean, I don't really know too much about the sport, but I DO know that he seemed to fall the least and did the craziest tricks.
But more importantly, he was hot, like, REALLY hot. Like, I dunno, like, your fantasies hot.
So yeah, because of him I kept going back to watch. Eventually I went and got the most pimped out board I could find, and... Well, I didn't want to look bad, so I continued to watch with the board. I was too afriad to ride it, just cause I didn't want to fall on my ass infront off all the unwashed rebels, or worse, have my beloved laugh at my beef.
Anyways, finally, like after a half a week of people harassing me to get off my ass and shit, finally, FINALLY, my dream man approached me. He said basically what everyone else said,
"Nice board. Are you ever gonna use it?"
But see, he was different, instead of telling him to go fuck himself I told him,
"Nah, I wanna see you try it out."
So yeah, oh my god, Felix did! And he seemed even cooler! I was drooling over him like a retard on his birthday.

After like an hour or so, he gave it back.
"You must have paid alot of money for this, it's really good."
I didn't understand how you can up the quality of an oval hunk of wood with wheels, but I told him the price. He said that I got ripped off, and I could have gotten a crappy board fine tuned for a cheaper price.
I guess the skating world is the oposite of the fashion world. Overpriced things wont do, no matter how good it is.
Anyways, just as he was about to leave, I asked him if he could give me lessons.
He said sure.
And yeah, since then, I've changed my look to skater (except better dressed and I have decent hygene) I really suck, right now, I'm still covering the basics. Like trying to move on a flat surface without falling. And slowly but surely trying to get into Felix's pants. So far thats the only thing I'm not failing in. ;)
Anyways, I gotta go. I need to start packing for home (I pack early! Nothing wrong with that)
-L.M

Do you want to making fuck, Berzerker!

Mon, 16 Oct 2006 00:13:59 GMT

Hey guys!!!
Long time no update! What has it been, a month?
So like, yeah, I can blame college for that. Sure, the beggining is fun, but once the workload starts coming, I just don't have any time for anything anymore! I hardly have time now!
Well, like, I do have time, but mostly at night, after I do some studying and shit. Then again, I found out one cute guy in my class is gay, Sebastian, who gets top grades in the class, and like, he's been cutting my workload in half, not to mention he's got quite the ass to stare at. He doesn't know I've been asking for him to tutor me so I could eventually get in his pants, mostly because he told me he HAS a boyfriend and his very much in... ugh, love with him (boo!). But I'm working past that moral exterior, I'll screw him someday. My plan is to make him my friend, like a FRIEND boy, and get really close to him, hell, I'll even pretend to be interested in his relationship. Then, one day its bound to happen, he's going to get into a lovers spat with his one and only, and come running to me. Hee hee hee, it's foolproof!
Mostly I say that its foolproof because I've done that before. Tee hee hee, I'm so wicked. *sniff* I wanna see wicked.

Oh! Also, a long time ago, not too long after I posted my last entry, I saw little Miss Sunshine with all my friends.
And I have to say, it was SOOOOOO CUTE! I loved it! I mean, like, the whole family was either ugly or just messed up. I kind of thought the emo brother was sort of sexy, but aside from that, just all messed up. I just loved it though, because I wasn't able to predict a thing from it. I want to see it again and again... I'm thinking about downloading it illegally.
Anyways, thats all, just want to reassure you I haven't died yet!
-Kisses
-L.M

Legally fabulous

Tue, 05 Sep 2006 16:55:00 GMT

Hey everyone!
Sorry for the half month of silence, I was busy settling in to my new dorm. I've also been spending my computer time writing to Tyler. The money I got from my summer job and whats wired in from my parents are more than enough to make my dorm absolutely gorgeous, my home away from home. I even got to bring Edison with, and he's doing just fine scaring the shit out of my roommate. Dont worry PETA, Edison is actually better off in college with me than he was back in New York. Theres a greenhouse on campus where I let Eddie out to stretch his wings every day (it's a great place to study/fuck too, no one ever goes in) I really love it here. California is like, the best place in America. I actually have discovered a new love for thrift shops here. Most of my dorm furniture is stuff that I got from thrift stores, and theres like, a billion of them in the area. I might even try going for the whole punk look. I've seen some students here that really make it look cool. I dunno, maybe its the change of scene, back in NYC, anyone who tried looking punk in my school would either look ridiculous or just be emo with extra peircings. Like I said, here, it actually looks cool. I've already started, I got this chain thats specially designed to connect from a tounge peircing to an ear peircing. It feels weird, and I haven't really worn it out yet (because if I keep it on too long, everything tastes like metal, also, the whole tugging thing doesnt sound pleasant.) but it really looks awesome on me. I've made a bunch of friends too, coincidentally, most of them are kind of punky. Turns out the punk rock kids are attracted to multicolor hair like a moth to a lamp.

No one really close yet, but I'm not lonley at all.

Anyways, I also gotta talk about my roomate.
His name is Justin, and he's like, you know, the kind of guy that claims hes a super liberal hippie because he's almost constantly stoned, but when it comes to accepting people for their sexuality, flips a shit.
I haven't told him I'm gay, but I'm sure he knows. I mean, I make it pretty obvious.
We've had a few conversations, all this guy seems to really care about is hash and his girlfriend back in Canada. Oh yeah, also, Justin is Canadian. No, he doesn't say "ey?" at the end of all his sentances. Kind of a let down, dont you know?
Yeah, he's kind of annoying. It's really embarrassing to bring guys home at night with him high as a kite in my room.
I'm gonna talk to him about that soon. I don't want Edison to become a stoner.
Anyway, what else is going on?
Aside from that, I'm a normal college student.
A studious (but sexy) bookworm by day, a horny (but sexy) party animal by night.

Gotta go
-L.M

Start spreading the news

Wed, 16 Aug 2006 20:20:47 GMT

I'm leaving today.

I spent yesterday with friends, but right now I'm at the airport. My shitty plane took off without enough fuel,so we had to stop in Michigan to refill. So I'm stuck here for an hour. Not that I'm too angry. The security has gotten all crappy on me and I'm not even allowed to play my PSP on the plane (they said it was like, some internet thing... Ugh!)

Yesterday everyone had a goodbye party for me. We had fun, except Tyler (I'm mad at him, note that I'm not calling him Ty, grr). He's been RIDICULOUSLY depressed over this. I mean, sure, I'm sad too. But its not worth it shedding any tears WHILE I was STILL THERE. I did everything to cheer him up. I even broke up with Carlos a couple days ago (And the sex with Carlos was still awesome, too)

The entire party, everyone was going crazy, having a good time, exchanging gifts and whatnot. And Tyler just kind of stood back in the group. Whenever we went somewhere, he'd lag behind.

I'm really getting sick of it. He's way too clingy.
And if our webcam sex is replaced by lovey dovey, "I miss you, sugar tits" chat, then it's gonna be over.

He wasn't that bad the first time we broke up. He didn't even seem that sad, if sad at all. His exact words were,
"Whatever, we still get to fuck, right?"
And I was like,
"Duh! -rolls eyes-"

Maybe it's BECAUSE I won't be having sex with him on a regular basis that he's blue.
I dunno. I mean, he's young, only 16, and I met him when he was 15. So I mean, he couldn't have been with that many other guys before me.... And chances are, he probably hasn't been a non-virgin as long as I have. Hell. I could have been his what? Like, 5th sexual partner? Maybe 6th? Like, I mean, he knew what he was doing, so I'm not his second or anything. Maybe its just that he hasn't been with a guy that long. I dunno, I never ask him about his past relationships, it's kind of a turn off, you know, if it doesn't involve me.

Anyways, I'd love to continue on this, but I gotta board now.
Next time I update in you, I'll be in CALI!! YAAAY!

-I'm gonna be apart of it ♪
-L.M

Wed, 02 Aug 2006 21:49:36 GMT

Omg! I'm gonna be leaving for cali in a few weeks! So excited! I've spent the last few days shopping for California and university clothes, and I plan on bleaching my hair to be completely blonde when I get there (I'm stil having second thoughts though, I mean, would I make a good blonde?)

I've been wearing my California clothes early though, because its so effing hot over here! Like, I feel like I'm gonna pass out every time I go out, it's like walking into an oven.
Anyways, I haven't really had much time to play with Ty, I've got a new guy with me for now, complete hunk, Carlos, but he's waaay traditional. Like, ok, when I say traditional, I dont mean like, he's like 1950's and stuff. I just mean that he doesn't know I'm having sex with other guys, you know, not the sharing type. I gotta keep it a secret (I'm good at it though, I've done the secret affair thing maybe a thousand times before.) But it's worth it. Because I mean, the sex is MINDBLOWING when he thinks hes the only guy thats pleasing me. The more convinced he is that I'm not cheating on him, the harder he fucks me.

Ok... Well, sure. Carlos' and his huge cock isn't the only thing on my mind. I have to admit. And I really hate to admit this, but Ty is becoming someone really close to me right now.
I told him something that I've only told one other person about, and that of course, is Beck, and thats of course, only because, she was with me.
I can tell you though. Not in detail of course, but ok.
I told Ty about the guy I lost my virginity to.
And I mean, that stuff is super top secret stuff! I mean, yeah, I can tell you thats my secret, because well duh, you all knew I WAS a virgin at one point in my life. And in case you didn't know:
YES, I WAS A VIRGIN ONCE UPON A TIME.

Allright, I guess it was about time I reflected on my childhood to you. The non-personal parts, that is.

I was born in Arizona, moved to NYC when I was 10, realized I was gay at 11, and came out the same year. Sometimes, I would wonder, if I had never moved to New York, would I have ever even come out. I mean, elementary school sucked major balls, sure, I got along with girls allright, but all the boys would make fun of me and call me a sissy and what have you, because I was never fond of what little boys like and all that jazz. During 3rd grade, me and my friends started a boys vs girls war. And, since in third grade, girls are taller than boys and also pretty much stronger than boys, we kicked their puny asses. I think that had to be probably one of the most heterosexual moments of my life. I ended up getting in a massive amount of trouble, and I had to go to have a stupid ass meeting with the principal and the student counceler about how they were concerned about me not behaving like a normal boy should, asking me questions like, if I was afraid of boys, or if I felt like there were things happening in my family that could relate to my behavior. They even had the nerve to do the whole, "Mommy and Daddy" doll bit, where I had to take a male and female doll, and show how they interacted around one another.
What a bunch of losers. If I ever see them, I'm gonna sing the "I'm gay" song^[1]. And kick them in the balls (except the principal... I'll kick her in the ovaries)

I remember I wasn't very sad at all when I left Arizona.
I think it was because none of my friends really gave me a formal goodbye.

I had a whole summer to adjust to New York before I started my first day in jr high. Which, I have to say, was a pretty fucking awesome day. It was the day I met Becky, and the day I was introduced into the fabulous world of fashion. I remember it like it was yesterday. Beck was in my homeroom (we had co-ed homerooms), she was sitting in the back of the room, wearing a pink tank top, a denim mini skirt, hunched over a compact mirror, applying mascara, she was the most confident girl I had ever laid eyes on. As for myself, I was wearing a baggy white shirt (wrinkled, I picked it up from the back of my closet), capris, and a pair of worn out sandals. I guess it was the the sound of her bracelets clacking together as she carefully applied the mascara, or her pink rimmed sunglasses, pushed up above her forehead, glared the late summer sunlight off its lenses, whatever it was, it drew me to her and I sat next to her. Right as my behind touched the chair, she stopped obsessing over her eyelashes. She put the mascara brush back into the tube and shut it. She shut her compact with a loud snap, as if trying to startle me. I begun to wonder if I had broke some sort of unspoken jr high rule.
She turned her head toward me, and looked me up. She was intimidating, I almost felt like her eyes were x-rays or something, her upper lip curled into a sort of sneer.
"I'd tell you to lose the capris, but you're a guy, so its ok." She muttered. I was pretty offended at the time, just because I felt like she should have said "hello" or something, before commenting on my wardrobe. I thought of this as an excuse to start a fight. And since I was a baby, I've always been good at making good comeback remarks.
"Well, I'd tell you that your lipstick clashes horribly with your tank top, but you're a girl, so its ok."
I was ready for a full out bitch fight, but to my suprise, she smiled, as if I had passed some sort of friendship test.
"Oh, I like you" She said, "Name's Becky, but you can call me Beck."
"Like the musician?"
"No, like Becky without an 'Y'."

So yeah, after that, she asked me to go shopping, and it was history from then on.

But thats all I can really talk about.
That long thing already is personal enough actually, now you know I wasn't always a snazzy dresser!

I'm gonna go now,

-L.M

^{[1]- Once I write it.}

Tue, 18 Jul 2006 07:51:43 GMT

Hey guys!
You know, I've been kinda updating more frequently (for my standards at least) But thats because I'm B.O.R.E.D. BORED
Ugh! Who ever thought that summer of senior year would be the worst summer of them all!
All my friends are busy working or planning last minute stuff for college! Talk about boring...
Ok.
Well, YES, they are all here... But I think that I have TOO much time with them, like, we've run out of things to do. So now "girls night out" is basically me, Beck, Nikki, Kati, Trish, Sasha, Alex,(etc etc) and sometimes Ty (forgot to mention, he has summer school, poor guy failed English) watching Sex in the City and asking eachother which character they relate to more, of course, I'M Samantha, and we all know why.

But what sucks about updating when you're bored is that you have nothing to really write about. ARGH! And thats the whole POINT of a livejournal, is to have something to write about! -Whines- I'm sooooo freakin bored! And when I'm bored I get horny! But Ty is asleep at home... And I really dont feel like going out (I look like a mess).
MAN.
Now I regret even starting a journal entry.
You know what, I'm just gonna go fuck around with my layout.
I'm getting tired of purple.
Then I'm gonna go jack off.
-Boop boop bee doo
-L.M

I am 57% girly!

Thu, 06 Jul 2006 01:07:31 GMT

Sup?!
I'm back from being moody and sulky (for the most part)
Because I know that if I mourned my grandma for too long, she'd haunt me.

Anyways, I had a fabulous fourth of July... actually. I had a THIRD and fourth of July!
I was driving around with Beck on the third, and we heard fireworks, so we were like "Hell, lets go see!"
It was really awesome, we parked by some park where there were only a few people, laid down on the grass, and marveled at the fireworks for about 20 minutes. And after the fireworks stopped, we started talking.
Beck was talking about how we're gonna be so far apart when school starts. She had the same worried tone in her voice, like what Tyler had before school ended. Of course, this time she didn't end up crying in my lap. On the contrary, she souned really cool and relaxed (dispite, of course, the worried tone).
I told her that she couldn't get rid of me that easily, and we laughed and changed the subject.

But really, I dunno. What if I really do lose touch with Beck. That would be almost surreal.
Because we've been friends for such a long time. But I always hear stories of lifelong friends never seeing eachother again.
Man... that would suck.
But I'm not gonna linger on it.

So anyways, I spent the first half of july fourth with Beck, Ty, Nikkie, Kati, Sasha, and like, all my other close friends. But me and Ty and this really cute guy we met at the park where we saw the fireworks (I forgot his name) ditched the girls to make our own fireworks ;)
And well,
Hee.
Remember when I said that one day I'd like to have a threesome with Ty in it some day?
Well... Ok... I had my...
I know you wont belive it when I say it.
I had my first threesome!
...
Ok. Well, to be honest, I knew what it was like, I've been in foursomes, fivesomes, sixsomes, I-lost-countsomes....
Just... Oddly enough. Never threesomes. I guess technically I have... But not formally.

It was really hot though, I was like, the controller of these 2 really hot guys (one of them being the lust of my life). It was amazing, I LOVE it when the sex is all about me. I just like being in control. I mean, its not like, in some sort of creepy overly dominating way... I'm really not like that all the time. My girlfreinds usually ask whether I like being dominated or being dominating. But I guess I like both. Sometimes I'll get sick of one, and switch to the other. But in independance days case, it was me being the dommie. It probably was the fireworks that got me all riled up.

All I'll say was, it was perfect.

Anyways yeah. Also, I plan to see the new "Pirates of the Carribean" movie in a couple of days. I was going to go on the premire night, but then it sold out... So I'm just gonna wait.
Either way, its still Johnny Depp in a sexy pirate suit.

O yeah!
And one more thing.
A quiz :D
I really wanted to do one, I havent done an online quiz in a long time. So...
Here goes!<3

[x] my fingernails/toenails are almost always painted ***Right now, hot pink!***
[ ] during the summer the only shoes i wear are flip flops
[x] my favorite toys as a child were barbies ***Mostly for ken ~_'
[ ] my favorite colour is pink or purple ***Nope, all of the colours!***
[ ] I did Gymnastics
[ ] I love skirts
[ ] hollister is one of my favorite places to shop
[x] tight jeans are the only jeans i'll wear
[x] I love chocolate
[ ] I've never had a real job

TOTAL: 4

[ ] my hair is almost always straightened ***Excuse me? Hairdos?***
[ ] I have at least 8 myspace pictures
[x] I usually go shopping once a week ***At LEAST once a week***
[x] I love to hang out at the mall with friends
[x] I have a real diamond ring or diamond necklace or earings
[x] I've gone to a tanning salon
[x] I've gone to the beach to tan - not to swim
[x] I have at least 10 pairs of shoes
[x] I watch either the OC or Laguna Beach
[ ] I change my icon weekly ***thats more nerdy than girly!***
[ ] I wear a shower cap

TOTAL:7

[x] I dont shop at Hot Topic ***Ew... That store is like, the goth ripoff of Abercrombie***
[x] my cell phone might as well become a part of me
[ ] I wear mascara everyday
[x] I've been or am on a diet
[x] bathing suits are adorable ***Mostly mens, but women have great fashon too with swimsuits!***
[ ] I dont know the difference between a sheep and a goat.
[x] big sunglasses are hott
[x] I have gotten my nails done before
[ ] MTV is one of my favorite channels ***Sorry. I'm actually a sucker for comedy central***

TOTAL: 6

[x] all I want to do at sleepovers is talk about boys ***Well, yeah, I have 2 kinds of sleepovers***
[x] I love to have gurls do my hair
[x] I give and recieve hugs from all my friends
[ ] I hate bugs
[x] carnivals are so fun!
[x] Summer is THE best season
[ ] my swimsuit has 2 pieces ***Well, that just draws the line between girly and being a girl
[ ] Im waiting for my knight in shining armor ***Maybe if he had a big sword***
[x] musicians are so hot
[ ] you write me a poem and tell me im beautiful and im all yours ***If you tell me your hung like a horse (and not lying) I'm yours for the night***

TOTAL: 6

[x] I am self-conscious
[ ] I cry often
[ ] my car smells like vanilla or cherry ***Wet Garden***
[x] my dishes get washed more than once a week *** Eww... yes***
[ ] I dont do sports
[ ] I HATE to run
[x] I squeal when i am surprised or angry ***When I'm really angry***
[x] I eat dried fruit as a snack
[x] I love romance novels ***The more lust scenes, the better***
[ ] Drew Barrymore is so cute ***Eww... Isn't she old?***

TOTAL: 5

[x] I dance a lot.
[x] usually spend an hour or over to get ready to leave my house
[x] I only have like 5 billion hair products
[x] I love to get dressed up.
[x] every part of my outfit needs to match
[x] I talk on the phone at least once a day to my friends
[x] I would love to have a photo shoot
[x] I apply lip stuff 50 times a day
[x] I wish I were a model

TOTAL: omg 9

[x] I wish I could meet Paris Hilton ***and take her money***
[ ] I have been something that was semi
[x] I own Uggs
[ ] Hip Hop is the best music
[ ] I pop my collar ***No... thats just lame***
[x] I like to be the center of attention ***Everyone secretly does***
[ ] guys with Mohawks are crazy
[ ] horses are beautiful
[x] I'd rather not pay attention in school
[ ] Cats are adorable ***Parrots are cooler -plays with Edison-***

TOTAL:4

[ ] I write my own music
[ ] I would love to visit Hawaii ***already have***
[ ] Valentine's day is so cute! ***@$##@$!!!***
[ ] white is better than black
[x] I wouldn't be caught dead in all black
[x] my closet is STOCK FULL of clothes
[x] hate the grunge look
[x]I love to read magazines

TOTAL: 4

[x] I love to gossip
[x] I had Lisa Frank folders/posters/notebooks as a kid ***Yes ;_;***
[ ] I love Celine Dion
[x] my bubble baths are 1-2hrs long
[ ] My wedding only needs a groom because it's already planned
[x] My friends and I are in a strict group. We mostly only hang out with each other.
[x] I like little kids ***They're so cuuuute!***
[x] Diet drinks are the best
[ ] I'm all about being vegetarian
[x] I refuse to eat at McDonalds ***Diet! Remember?***

TOTAL: 7

[ ] I check my myspace everyday.
[x] I love life!
[x] I have a lot of jewlery!
[ ] my screen name(s) have x's in them
[ ] either one of my myspace names has/had <3's or in them
[x] I would never want to be the opposite sex
[x] It's not what he/she said it's the way he/she said it
[x]I have more than 3 pillows on my bed

TOTAL: 5

Now add up all the total points and put "I am __% girly" for the subject if you steal or get tagged.

Ok, lets see how much of a girl I am!

-Lust is all you need
-L.M